Copying in a work

In my first blog i talked about how I almost got suspended because of copying in a lab. Since that day, I promised myself that I was never going to copy a big work again. But guess what? I broke my promise. About 1 month ago, Mr. Balata gave us a homework where we needed to watch a 45 minute video to answer some questions. I totally forgot about that homework, and the day we needed to upload it, was my sisters wedding. At the middle of the day I remembered that we had that homework, I wanted to die because I thought that if I didn't did it, Mr. Balata was going to think bad about me. Then I remembered that in a group that I have, someone sent a photo with the answers, I didn't have an option, it was either zero or to copy. I decided to copy, I changed some things of the work and upload it. I was scared because I felt that Mr. Balata was going to notice. 

The next week I had class with him, and nothing, so I thought that everything was okay. The next class he had some works pasted in the wall, I immediately knew that one of those works was mine. I was very scared because I didn't wanted to get suspended. At the end of the class, I stayed with him and told him that one of those works was mine. He was really upset, then he told me, "you were in a hurry right?".

"Yes, it was the day of my sisters wedding and I remembered that day" I replied in a shy way. 

"You should've done it before that day if you had that special event" he told me.

I didn't knew what to say anymore, "i know, but I really forgot, Im sorry" i said.

He told me he didn't wanted to gave me a big punishment.

Then I told him, "I know that what I did was very wrong but, you were a student some time ago, and I'm sure that you copied sometime."

He told me that I was totally right, so I made him understand me a little better, I was really scared for my punishment, but then he told me that he was going to get me a very little punishment.

I was very upset with myself that I copied in a very big work, but sometimes you need to live things that you may be a little scared of, that little things are what make yourself understand what's wrong and what's okay to do.